It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything. For so many reasons. Mainly because I exposed this blog to everyone I knew thinking I would be helping other people with what I write about on here. Ya know, subjects like family dynamics, personality disorders, kids, relationships etc. All it took was ONE comment from ONE person that I knew to completely deter
me from writing. He made me rethink everything all because I was being honest in the moment about how I felt about a situation. (Not talking about my husband). This person has had significance in my life. At the same time I look at the relationship
And I’m not sure why I care(d) so much about what he thinks or says. We have a relationship but not to the point that I should really care what he thinks….

I started this blog because I wanted to help others realize their not alone in their situations. To be a voice…..

Writing is an outlet for me. Really it’s just for me. Not for my audience. It’s like anything else you read or hear; take what you want from it and leave the rest. You don’t have to agree with me, like what I write…..etc…..but this MY blog and I’m taking it back!

I feel like there are so many areas of my life I need to take back. Maybe in time that’ll happen. Depression has a way of making you believe that nothing will ever get better…..which I think is kind of where I’m at right now.

I feel like I’m spiraling. Like at any minute I could explode. Like a ticking time bomb. There are areas of my life that I feel like I have zero control over right now. It’s literally making me crazy.

I rarely talk about “what’s really going on” because I feel like so many people have their own crap to deal with. But I think I’ll start writing again so I can relieve a little bit if the pressure.

I HIGHLY recommend unsubscribing to this blog if you know me and are going to get upset. There are a few people I’d unsubscribe myself if I knew how.

~B