This is EXACLY how it felt to be with my first husband (The one who committed suicide)….

Flashing lights and we

Took a wrong turn and we

Fell down a rabbit hole.

You held on tight to me
‘Cause nothing’s as it seems
I’m spinning out of control.

Didn’t they tell us don’t rush into things?
Didn’t you flash your green eyes at me?
Haven’t you heard what becomes of curious minds?

So we went on our way
Too in love to think straight
All alone or so it seemed.

But there were strangers watching
And whispers turned to talking
And talking turned to screams.

Didn’t they tell us don’t rush into things?
Didn’t you flash your green eyes at me?
Didn’t you calm my fears with the Cheshire cat smile?

Didn’t it all seem new and exciting?
I felt your arms twisting ’round me
It’s all fun and games ’til somebody loses their mind.

But darling, we found wonderland
You and I got lost in it
And we pretended it could last forever

We found wonderland
You and I got lost in it
And life was never worse but never better

I reached for you but you were gone
I knew I had to go back home
You search the world for something else to make you feel like what we had
And in the end in wonderland we both went mad……

Lyrics~ Taylor Swift

Love,

~B