Sometimes I really suck at being a wife. Actually MOST OF THE TIME I suck at being a wife. I am about to contradict myself on a lot of levels here, so bear with me. I am the FIRST to say I am sorry to almost anyone including my husband. I am stubborn, mean, and in general a fairly disrespectful person with him at times.

The problem is this….we got married to fast, certain bargains that we agreed to were not upheld, (on both ends) and in general I am pretty much a bitter bitch at times. Now, while everyone else gets to see how WONDERFUL he is, and he is….there are so many people who think I am SOOO wonderful as well….these are the people who do not have to deal with us on an everyday basis, because IF you did, I GUARANTEE you would divorce me, and maybe him as well. I am the “cut off my nose to spite my face kind of girl.” If I do not believe I am in the wrong, I will refuse to apologize.

Now, in saying THAT I will say THIS, I am the FIRST person to apologize when I have done something super shitty and uncalled for. I believe whole-heartedly that apologies are the only way marriages survive. However, just because YOU believe you deserve an apology does not mean the other person:

1. is ready to give said apology

or

2. believes they are wrong.

I have never been one of those people to applogize just to make things better….HELL NO! I do not believe in saying things you do not mean (when your sober).